The sun was shining. It was the first day this year I seen temperatures over 50. And can you believe it was 71!
I sat in the house all day by the window, drowning myself in work. With music on, I got knots in my stomach. Worried….
I woke up this morning, after my children got their selves ready and out the door to school. They let me sleep in? Or I didn’t wake up, when they tried to wake me?
I received a text, from my 16 year old daughter, she is a junior in high school. It was a picture, and I wasn’t in the mood to read it, so I didn’t.
I looked up the Numerology for the day, posting in to my Facebook page. https://www.facebook.com/ARICEnumerology/
Not even taking the time to pray, like I told my followers to do.
I worked on notes all day. I have assignments due, but my brain wouldn’t function enough to answer a question.
I made an important call to the college.
I tried to make plans to explore the woods, with my sis. I thought it may be fun to be in middle school again, exploring, and sneaking some liquor, in hopes of not getting grounded. Those plans were a no go.
I had a call, from my best friend and boyfriend. We talked about the future, that I question. Things have evolved for us in a way, I didn’t imagine would be our future. We lost each other in a big way, so I examine… I can’t figure out how to go back to us… We both have changed, gaining a new view towards one another.
My children get home from school.
My daughter asks, “did you receive my text”. I say, no. She lets me know, she was excepted into the honour’s society. I hug her, and tell her, that’s amazing.
I cuddle my 5 year old son. He then, goes to hang out with his 15 year old brother. I hear screaming I see tears from my 5 year old, as my older son yells, “Stop it!”. He doesn’t bother to help my my youngest, instead screams. So I get angry, and yell at my 15 yr old.
I continue to seclude myself, in my bedroom.
I think to myself, here I am! Hanging out in my bedroom, upset. Any parent would take their daughter to celebrate, that’s a huge achievement!
I then think back to my post. I tell my daughter, I will be back, I am headed to pray down by the water. I need something, I told her.
So, here I am at a local lake. I can’t really get very close to the water, but I am close enough. I figured I would write down all my thoughts, release all the negativity from my mind.
And who knows maybe someone will read this journal, and relate.
So, hear I go time to meditate, to our God.
I recall watching a music video earlier and thinking that’s me.
Chris Stapleton’s “Fire Away” https://youtu.be/ZI-aPHeUDlk.
I wanted to be with my mom, in heaven. But, if that was me, then how could I be with her, under such acts.
I wake up from God’s infinite love, and realize, the devil was trying to gain my heart. Why else would I have so many blessings, wanting nothing to do with it.
I highly recommend “Prayer Against Evil Spirits” https://youtu.be/6wLvTIH88NI. As it takes me from the physical plane.
I quivered, to the point of convulsing. I was cold! I could feel, it was more than just that.
I gaining a calm. No shivering, my body gained somber.
Thank you God!!! Thank you, for another chance!!! Thank you for all you are!
It’s time to go home to my babies, give them a huge hug, and put my school work to the side, for a bit. Nothing on this earth is more important, than my children.
Peace, love, and strength to all!
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