The sun revealed the blue sky’s today. It was the first day this year, temperatures surpassed 50. Can you believe, it was 71!
I sat in the house all day, by the window, drowning myself with work. With music on, I got knots in my stomach. Worried….
I woke up this morning, after my children got their selves ready and out the door for school. They let me sleep in? Or, I didn’t wake up, when they tried to wake me?
I received a text, from my 16 year old daughter who is a junior in high school. It was a picture, and I wasn’t in the mood to read it, so I didn’t.
I looked up the Numerology for the day posting in to my Facebook page. https://www.facebook.com/ARICEnumerology/
Not even taking the time to pray, as I told my followers to do.
All day, I worked on notes. I have assignments due, but my brain wouldn’t allow me to answer a question.
I made an important call to the college.
I tried to make plans; to explore the woods with my sis. I thought it may be fun to be in middle school again, exploring, and sneaking some liquor, in hopes of not getting grounded. Those plans, were a no go.
I received a call, from my best friend, and boyfriend. We talked about the future, that I question. Things have evolved for us, in a way I couldn’t imagine, as our future. We lost each other, in a big way, so I examine. I can’t figure out, how to go back to us. We both have changed, gaining a new view towards one another.
My children get home from school.
My daughter asks, “Did you get my text?” I said, no I didn’t. She lets me know, she was excepted into the honors society. I hug her! Telling her, that’s amazing!
I cuddle, my 5 year old son. He then goes to hang out with his 15 year old brother. I hear screaming, I see tears from my 5 year old, as my older son yells, “Stop it!”. My oldest son, doesn’t bother to help my my youngest, instead screams. So, I get angry and yell at my 15 yr old.
I continue, to seclude myself in my bedroom.
I think to myself, here I am! Hanging out in my bedroom, upset. Any parent, would take their daughter to celebrate, that’s a huge achievement!
I then think back to my post. I tell my daughter, I will be back, I am headed to pray, down by the water. I need something, I told her.
So here I am, at the local lake. I can’t get very close to the water, but I am close enough. I figured, I would write down all my thoughts, release all the negativity from my mind.
Who knows, maybe someone will read this journal and relate.
Time to meditate: to our God.
I recall watching a music video earlier, thinking, that’s me.
Chris Stapleton’s Fire Away” https://youtu.be/ZI-aPHeUDlk.
I wanted to be with my mom, in heaven.
I wake up, from God’s infinite love, and realize, the devil was trying to gain my heart. Why else, would I have so many blessings, wanting nothing to do with it.
I highly recommend
“Prayer Against Evil Spirits” https://youtu.be/6wLvTIH88NI
It takes me, from the physical plane, gaining consciousness, of God.
I quivered, to the point of convulsing, I was cold! I could feel though, it was more, than just that.
I gain a calm. No shivering, my body gained, somber.
Thank you, God!!! Thank you, for another chance!!! Thank you, for all you are!
It’s time to go home! Give my babies, a huge hug, and put my school work to the side, for a bit. Nothing, on this earth, is more important than my children.
UPDATE: The following weekend, I was able to take my daughter to her first theatre show. Well, besides her dedication to the high school plays. She was able to experience a city for the first time, and she was an excellent passenger driver. I can say for certain; it was a day marked forever in my heart!
Peace, love, and strength to all!
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