Reference #28 Get Out of Your Way
Hello everyone! Welcome to my daily column! I hope that you had an awesome day! My day was eventful, I suppose I got a good bit done! I hope you enjoy tonight’s column.
This morning I found myself overwhelmed, I blame it on the fact that I woke up in a hurry skipping my morning foundation. I decided to abandon the sinking ship (dealing with chaos) and hid away to restart my day by reading my daily reads. How awesome it was that my overwhelming frustration turned into a word of encouragement from Sarah Ban Breathnach telling me to see how bright my soul is, Jesus told me in the book of Luke to focus on him, and Louis Efron encouraged me to keep chasing my dreams. Then I did my daily meditation!
I have been doing this guided meditation daily for a couple of weeks, which guides me to visualize myself in a peaceful place. My place of peace is in a garden, lately with Jesus. I wanted to share with you what Jesus told me.
I went to sit next to him on a rock next to a waterfall. I said, “Jesus, I am stressed out!” I want to add that I was very outspoken today as opposed to other days. Typically, I sit and wait for his words. He didn’t respond to my complaint, so I repeated myself. He said, “What are your blessings?” I named all of my blessings, my family, my home, my car that is broken down, etc. He said, “Why do you believe so little?” I said, “Jesus, I am reading the word, I am learning, I am spending time with you every day, what do you mean?” He said, “What are you doing every day?” I said, “I am not doing much of anything, I don’t have any direction, I am staying busy but accomplishing little; I need help because I don’t know what to do.” He said, “Why are you trying to do anything when you don’t even know where you are, let alone where you are going?” He said, “You need to get your life in order.”
I don’t know what I am doing or how to make the next step. I never walked this road before; it is all new to me. Do I trust God, absolutely, yet I still walk this life thinking that God needs my help guiding me? I don’t know how to keep the earth floating in the milky way. It’s like trying to tell a train conductor how to do his job, not ever doing the job. Yet here I am beating myself up for not knowing how to maneuver into the future, leaving myself drained. The process that it took to design me is a miracle in itself, I can’t figure out how to defy gravity or invent a thing called reproduction, yet here I am feeling like I am falling short because I am not God. It is high time I learn to stop trying to jump ahead, but much more than that, trust that the creator of all is on the job. As for getting my life in order, there are many responsibilities I neglect while drained of energy trying to be productive. The famous saying let go and let God seems to be a testimony for many that had their dreams come true. If it can happen for them, it could happen for me too.
God is plenty capable of guiding your steps. I wish you all a beautiful day tomorrow! You are blessed, don’t forget it!